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Confusion

Many people go through life staying put in certain locations, turning round and round; and more often than not, they feel dizzy as the world around them spin. I am in such a situation right now though I don't know why. There are so many confusions and frustrations though I can't put it in words. There are so many things in my life right now that are hindering my growth in God, so many battles lost. I know that the War has already been won by Our Lord Jesus but will I be in the winning side at the End? In my service to the KING, I was always there to impact people but what about myself. In the dawn of a new era for me, this is the worst I could have expected. Would I end this year as a scum (as I was the same time last year) again? I pray oh God, that I wont. I truly and madly need discipline in my life- spiritual discipline that requires divine help. I am free because JESUS paid the price. YOU are my King and friend. Draw me close to you...

1 Corinthians 9:27

²⁷No, I beat my body and make it my slave so that after I have preached to others, I myself will not be disqualified for the prize.

Group photo from church camp.. Proud of all you guys! 

Pathway To Spirituality

The pathway to the Light is not easy


It was like the blurrest 3 days of my life. Due to the natureof the camp itself I must say that there was no 'WOW' (a sudden dramatic positive change of life) effect, unlike some other camps I've been. Both a good thing and a bad thing. One of the things about the WOW effect is that it does not last long usually. Anyway, it was a great experience nonetheless, now that I've discovered my tempearament in my pathway to spirituality. But most of all, I thank God for the fellowship I had with the people there and a good weekend-off the usual calendar.

My dominant trait

1) Comtemplative- loving God through adoration
Key idea: As 2 lovers do nothing but gaze into each other's eyes, the
contemplative holds hand with God and gazes lovingly at God until his
heart's delight is satisfied.

2) Enthusiasts-loving God with mystery and celebration
Key idea: God is to be lovedwith gusto, so we must let go and encounter him
with all excitement and awe.

May God, through His Spirit, strengthen my inner being.

Heaven is in your heart!

Kingdom of Heaven is better than Troy or King Arthur. Not because of the cinematic effects, good acting, or ORLANDO BLOOM... but because it taught me one or two things about life, and confirmed a few others.

Meet Belian of Ibelene (Orlando Bloom), son of Godfrey. Before he was knighted (by his dying father), he was a sinful blacksmith.. he killed a somewhat wicked priest who deserved to die anyway. Just few years down the road, Belian needs to defend the city of Jerusalem from the 'mighty' Saladin, the muslim leader of the Saraceans. As one might suspect, this movie is what is called 'politically sensitive' (or should I use religion-ly sensitive). Muslims and christians fighting and racing to control the Holy City, God is with him who wins..Classic, ain't it?

That being said, the underlying lesson is one of great importance. The 'kingdom of heaven' mentioned in the Bible is not on earth- not in Jerusalem. It is out-of-the-world. Muslims and crusaders at that time miss the point! As even in Isaiah 55 it is said 'your thoughts are not My thoughts... declares the Lord'. The kingdom of heaven is established when Jesus returns in all his glory, and as Belian has also said- it is in our heart. If we love God, and do what is right, and be blameless.. the Kingdom of Heaven has already been established in us.

One more issue highlighted in the movie: Are we required to do evil for the GREATER good? May God be my guide, and teach me if I ever fall into this situation.

Enjoying Your Youth means Playing AND Studying Hard!

Just had a great weekend.. and in some ways, the weekend is extending itself right up to this very moment. Well, sometimes, students just don't understand workers (working people, that is) but do workers really understand students? Ok, fine, they were once students as well, but humans are a forgetful bunch- plus: times have changed. Back then, there were no posh malls, no internet, no DOTA, no PS2, no happening peers... all you can do is study, eat and sleep.

The modern student is different. Temptations are everywhere. Study is still fun- but the rest is 'funner'. This doesn't mean that they are a spoilt lot. Yes they have fun 24-7, but they too worry about their studies at the same time. They know that screwing the math paper means disaster, but the yound self just doesn't justify itself by actions, if you understand what I mean. In conclusion, while the past generations had no worries but to study and sleep, the current generation has much more worry, for the reasons given above. This is not a bad thing, since we grow in our problems, don't we? Saying that, however, actions speak louder than worries. For God and for our parents, I guess I'll try hard to choose the less fun activity more - studying.

My schedule from 7th - 9th May 2005
Saturday
Morning- Helped in a disabled telematch event
Afternoon- spent time with the Awana Kids in Church
Night- Eu Joe's birthday party, eating nasi lemak (something new) and
barbeque

Sunday
Morning- Guess what? Church, of course
Afternoon- met a friend, and his lawyer friend
Evening- futsal with the testerone-filled church dudes
Night- went dinner with aunts and uncles; watch 'Lost' on AXN

Monday
Morning- Ms Meera's interesting Criminal lecture
Afternoon- Watched 'Kingdom of Heaven', starring Orlando Bloom (the movie
rowks)- by the way, the last time I watched a movie was 'Constantine'.. so I'm
really deprieved of it, me being a movie fan.
NOW- blogging- arguably the most boring thing I've done for the past 3
days... Hahaha

...Now that's what I call LIFE. Oh ya, I really pray that I'll be able to spend more time with God, though. Forgive me, Lord.