Without Righteousness, No One Can See God

It is 3.45 in the morning. Time to sleep is of the essence; but the work and worship of the Lord should be of no delay. Since my exam is over, I have all the time in the world to do all that I enjoy and desire. But the flesh should not overtake the spirit and therefore I turn again to the Word of Life for spiritual bread.

It is an honour and a privilege to be a servant of the Most High God. Indeed becoming the leader of Christian Fellowship is a great challenge that I’m sure God will take me through. Yet, I still need to have personal growth with my Lord and Saviour, as what Brother Anthony had shared in CF meeting today. My outward acts of worship are of importance but the true test is of the heart- in which God looks at. I pray continuously that God will search my heart and convict me if there be any hypocrisy in me; yet I testify again to anyone reading this blog- I long to love the Lord my God with all my heart, soul and strength. Love you, Jesus.

Even as I flip through the scripture and was praying for God’s guidance in leadership, God continued to show me 1 Timothy 4:12 (credit to Daniel who first ‘revealed’ it to me)

‘Don’t let anyone look down on you because you are young, but set an example for the believers in speech, in life, in love, in faith and in purity.’

I am young, though I’m older than half of the people in CF, but I look young, and I am of a small stature. But God continues to show me how faithful and how greatly he had and would use me in His work, to Him be glory forever and ever. How great Thou Art. What God desire is not the beautifulness of the outward, but the walk of the righteous. I admit sometimes I do not walk righteous in so many ways- especially in the things mentioned in 1 Timothy 4:12, but my prayer to God today (as of 4 a.m.) is for God the Father to work in me with His Spirit, through Christ Jesus my Lord and saviour- to be pleasing to Him in speech, in life, in love, in faith, in purity and in holiness.

We are Fantastic

We were made fantastic too?

Four days of nearly sleepless nights never had a better ending. I arrived (after my contract paper) just in time for the 2.30 p.m. Fantastic Four screening at the new GSC Cinema in One Utama. Of course I managed to grab myself a pack of those sweet caramel poppies and storm straight into Hall 3. Surprisingly, my usual blurness during the afternoons were not present. And, before long, the usual comic strips (for most if not all Marvel Comic-depicted movies) flashed through the screen...

Fantastic Four has this usual introduction on how our heroes acquired their special abilities (Cosmic storm, reminds you of anything?). The next twist of the movie would, of course, turn to the difficulty of the 4 heroes in controlling their powers and how they used in for the good If you are a person seeking for lots of action scenes in the movie, you'd probably be surprised. On my last count, there were less than 4 or 5? What is most significant in this movie is how the four heroes deal with their own issues, whether with or without their super powers. These issues, are of course not far from the rest of us who are mere non-heroes:

Ben Grimm a.k.a The Thing
Perhaps the character that touched me the most. Ben Grimm, after the cosmic shower, had literally turned into the Thing. Something so different, so 'ugly' that his wife could not accept it and left him. From that moment, Ben needed to deal with his appearance, and the starings of many. In our life, are we also also struggling with our ugly appearance or our behaviour or our oddness for being Christ's servants?

Reed Richards a.k.a Mr Fantastic
As you will find in the movie, Reed is a consciencious person. He take all details into deep consideration before making a decision. Nothing wrong with that for a physics scientist except that you bring in formulas and equations for every other thing you do, including your relationship with others. Besides, that's a danger that you trust in your judgment and eyes too much rather than God. Do we live by sight or by faith?

Johnny Storm a.k.a. Human Torch
Johnny's the show-off type. From his riding-cum-kissing scene at the start of the movie, till his production of action figues of the fab 4, he believes in the outward appearance. Some of us are like Jon, they like showing off, whether it be a 'super power' or a special talent or wealth, yet do we show-off our faith in Christ?

Sue Storm a.k.a. Invisible Woman
Being able to switch from something to nothing and vice versa is a great gifting, but Susan's emotions needed some control. Her anger towards Reed (her ex) tore them apart just because Reed said 'no' on co-habiting. Anger is a powerful tool of destroying relationships, more so the God-man relationship. Moses learnt that the hard way; I hope I needn't. One question we all ought to ask ourselves is whether we get angry of God and turn away from Him when He says 'No'. Remember: God love us and sometimes He will not give us something we would regret having.

Oh yeah, by the way, did you know that all of us are fantastic too? The Bible says We were fearfully and wonderfully made.

Living in the Mercies and love of God

I think it must have been more than 1 week since I've blog, I've lost count and I don't really care. But I'm back! God is good and well, He'd brought me through at least till today. And right now, I'm suppose to be studying but I'm sitting right here talking to my 'sis' Xi Ying and blogging. But well I'm happy about it especially if this blog glorifies God...:

Seeking God

Just that this week, except for the times that I've been studying and relaxing and doing nothing, I've beeen really serving and praying for God's guidance and surrendering. Taking up the presidency post (in CF) is to many a great, great responsibility- to me, it's a great great honour to serve God. And of course this in turn, will be indirectly a pressure to me but all I know, and all God wants me to know is to surrender all to Him and He loves me no matter what.

God's faithfulness

And, time-travelling back to 5 days ago, on Sunday, my church in Subang (CDPC) celebrated its 5th anniversary. Praise and thanksgiving and glory be unto God, to who all things were made and done. God has indeed been faithful to the church (you should have came and see the grand-ness and the skits and the performances). And above all that, GOd had been faithful to me since this 'temple' of mine was planted about 20 years ago. GOd really had been great in my life WOW WOW WOW - allow me to be crazy for a moment... ok, back to my seriousness- on the day of my church's anniversary, He did revealed just a little bit of His purpose for me in where He has put me, even in KDU and CDPC and I just felt so joyful and encouraged. Indeed, the God Almighty I worship is the God who hears and the God who works and the God who provides. Hallelujah!

So that is me. I guess right now I feel a bit disillusioned again with my exams coming and all. But deep in me I know He will take me through ... and always be there.

Brothers and Sisters

Just wrote a hopefully(touching) testimonial on friendster for my dear Sis Melody Hor, and really even as I receive love from God, GOd has really been leading me and guiding me to show love. And so, well, I find myself having this tendancy right now, to treat many people around me as 'brothers and sisters'... thought we are all brothers and sisters in Christ but to me, this bros and sis are much more special than. I usually don't mention names here but I really feel proud to have them as kins - Lik Ee, XiYing, Angela, Dianne.. and last but not least (though I've not really told him) Yap-whom has always been like my brother since secondary school days. So much for saying that, the most that I can really do is just to encourage them, and be around them- not to say I'm being proud here- but in Proverbs it has also been said that "It is good to know a friend (me paraphrasing it). And indeed, when I need encouragement, which I always do, they will and are encouraging me.

Thanksgiving

I think I'm getting a bit long-winded here so I'll stop. To those who are reading this blog, peace be with you and I shall pray for you if you need- just give me a tag... And may God bless you and keep you forever and ever...

"My heart and myflesh will fail, but God is the strength of my heart, and my portion forever..." Psalm 73