Just a thought

Living on Earth is expensive,
but it does include a free trip
around the sun every year.

How long a minute is
depends on what side of the
bathroom door you're on.

Birthdays are good for you;
the more you have,
the longer you live.

Happiness comes through doors you
didn't even know you left open

Ever notice that the people who are late
are often much jollier
than the people who have to wait for them?

If Wal-Mart is lowering prices every day,
how come nothing is free yet?

You may be only one person in the world,
but you may also be the world to one person.

We could learn a lot from crayons:
some are sharp, some are pretty,
some are dull, some have weird names,
and all are different colors....but
they all exist very nicely in the same box.

Working for God on earth does not pay much,

but His Retirement plan is out of this world!!!!!!!!!!

Copyright Reserved. The above is taken from another blog. ;) Sorry about the entries that are few and far between nowadays.

Apologies

Just a short entry this time around (I can sense your relieve). Just wanted to clarify that if you see any other comments ever deleted from the blog, it's not a negative comment from the readers but some advertisements trying to cheat your (yes, you!) money. Sorry for any inconvenience caused.

Have a jolly good day! Thanks for all your support!

Fellow Travellers (by John Fischer)

Just Good Company
by John Fischer

Someone just signed a message to me, “God bless you, dear fellow traveler,” and something about that felt good. Of course the blessing part feels good; I never turn down a blessing from anyone. Our dry cleaning man is a dear Korean believer who never ceases to bless my family and me every time I see him. It's getting to where I go for the blessing now, heck with the dry cleaning! But I especially like the “dear fellow traveler” part.

As believers in Christ and members of the family of God we are, indeed, travelers on a trip with a destination. We are not insignificant results of evolved DNA wandering around the cosmos with no end but a forgotten grave. We are sacred stories in the mind of a Creator-God on a journey to our eternal home with Him, and He is using our lives, along the way, to make a statement.

And because this journey has a destination, all points of it have meaning. We are not just marking time here. We are building towards something solid. The steps are a necessary part of our growth. If we didn't need this, we wouldn't be here. God would have taken us home long ago. But our work here is not finished, and not only our work, but also the work of life's experiences upon us, is still being done. God is using everything in our lives to mold us into who He wants us to be for Him in eternity. We are fellow travelers with a destination and the destination brings purpose and hope to the here and now. You can endure just about anything along the way, if you know, ahead of time, that the outcome of your journey is secure.

But we are also “fellow travelers.” In other words, we are going where we are going together. That's a big part of the deal. You don't go it alone on this road to eternity. We have not only a cloud of witnesses who have gone before us and are now cheering us on (Hebrews 12:1), we have a fellowship of those around us who are in the middle of the same journey. We have each other for companionship, comfort, strength, accountability, and encouragement. And when we fall, there is always someone there to pick us up.

Isn't it good to have company?

Where does my heart lie?

Does going to somewhere else really give you that "needed rest" that people have been telling you about? If anyone should answer that question, it shouldn't be me. But I will attempt to answer that question since I am back at home, far from the fuzz and buzz of the city, well, sort of. There's always this lazy, draggy, nostalgic feeling back here in Ipoh. It's like suddenly your life just went from normal speed to low speed- to a near stand still. Maybe it's something to do with the rest of the people back here. Or maybe it's just me. Ipoh is Ipoh; it will never be Ipoh city, or Ipoh Metropolis, or Ipoh Megacity... yet all these kind of put that "pressure" on me to think over life- or some would call it "Reflect".

And if you ask me what's the results of my reflection, it's whole bunch of rubbish jumbled up with some useful lesson (I think). First of all, most of my buddies are gone- all over the country and the world-no more football in early mornings, not even 2-on-2s. Next, cherish people. People come and go, so how would we know if we were supposed to make an impact in their life for the better-but ommitted to do so? Thirdly, despite my age, I still love playing computer games, but I guess age is just a number, right? Last but also the most importantly, homecoming is far from taking a rest. Occasionally, some things or others would just pop up in your mind. You see, even if you're far from the "scene" physically, your mind and heart might be still there. One thing I say to myself: release, friend...

If I only get a chance, I would really want to show how much I appreciate everyone who had been in my life, whether they played a big or small role. But sometimes I don't have the guts, other time, I'm just being the old unappreciative self. But I do love you guys and cherish you guys and thank you guys for the time that no money can buy.... IGNORE THIS PART IF YOU THINK I'M DRUNK AND/OR EMOTIONAL.

I want to show you my all --- Nicholas Hor Sien Pin.

Your Grace is sufficient for me...

But He said to me,"My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness. Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me. Corinthians 12:9

Jesus told Paul 3 times the above statement. Admidst of much suffering that God's people endure, He says that His grace is sufficient for us. The weaknesses seen we see in ourselves ought to be the pointer toward His strength. Even more, we are to "boast" of our weaknesses. Guess theverse sums it all out. Yet, what is this GRACE that could be so sufficient and so great that Paul would mention it over and over again througout all his letters? What had made him so convinced and obligated to talk about this GRACE?

AND what is GRACE to you? Is it what is known as "the gift we do not deserve"? Or would you describe it as the movements of that pretty balerina? The eagle maybe?

Throughout the month of October, not.Weak.blog will be opening a discussion on "GRACE". Leave a 'Comment' at the end of this box on what is grace and how has it impacted your life, if at all. After all, at the end of our journey of knowing Jesus this side of heaven, we'd probably be sent of with a solemn (should not be) song of Amazing GRACE.

Happy Mooncake Festival (Light up your lanterns!)

Mooncake (or mid-autumn) festival is approaching. Back here, where the moon is brighter than ever (and I'm sure this is a fact all around the world. To be honest, I've not really been celebrating this festival for some time. Until this year. This year I get to attend two such 'celebration' in an attempt to re-live the childhood lantern-playing days. Though the gatherings has lanterns and candles, it hardly seem to be the traditional mooncake celebration gathering. Perhaps I'm now much taller and much older since the last time I handled a lantern, and there's no more children-playing-adults-chatting scene. But just a bunch of youths of same height making a hoo-hah around the neighbourhood. But hey... why not? Ok Ok, it's a culture incorporated into the gathering of God's people, but it's cool... It is of such importance to him when the Apostle of the Lord said 'To those under the law, I became like one under the law (though myself am not under the law), so as to win those under the law. To those not having the law, I became like one not not having the law (though I am not free from God's law but under Christ's law), so as to win those not having the law... I have became all things to all men so that by all possible means I might save some. I do all this for the sake of the gospel, that I may share in its blessing. Sometimes to reach out to the group you're in, you gotto know them and their culture as well. Such as having a mooncake festival gathering, or have some 'happening' dance party or other events. If you're a christian student, be a christian student, and not only a christian; of course not only a student as well. Remember, we are calle to be IN THE WORLD, thoough we are not OF THE WORLD. Obviously, we must always be mindful not to sin when we are in this world, but as long as it's not sin, what's wrong with organizing a dance party (NO drugs, NO alcohol, NO cigarettes) to reach out to the 'blind' youths?

Indeed one thing Paul said in his First Letter to the Corinthians is truly true - 'I do all this for the sake of the gospel, that I may share in its blessings.

Jesus is Lord

We often see the phrase in the back screens of cars; we often hear pastors preach on it; obviously we have sang countless time about it. But in our hearts, is Jesus REALLY Lord.

No doubt. Jesus is Lord. There is nothing more true than that. And perhaps many of us had grown up being showered upon this truth. But are we convicted of this truth? Putting it another way, we have the head knowledge, but do we trust Him as Lord enough to do whatever He says, and proclaim without a doubt to the person of the next: JESUS IS LORD.

I guess it is true that each of us has different ways of worshipping and giving glory to Him. But if we (yes, including me) cannot even say out publicly (meaning with a randomly picked group of people, and not just christians) that Jesus is Lord, it appears more like silently denying Christ. I admire people who can just by the first meeting with strangers tell them about Christ but is it not also my obligation to tell people about Jesus?

For me, it is more to convenience sake and shyness more than anything that I seldom declare the Lordship of Christ. Yet, having said that, I choose now to step out of my comfort zone, and declare to all: Jesus Christ is Lord. May the Lord's Spirit be teaching me to bear His cross and never deny Him.

Happy Merdeka 0831

It is always a thrill to start a new semester. The lazy dazy vacation says goodbye, and it's college mates, classmates and lecturers time. For me, it is muchof a transition, especially the part where I will spend half of my day (or more sometimes) in college - meeting people, attending classes, meeting people. It is almost mundane. After some time, it becomes natural, dry. But at first, it's a disguised beast that will silently draw me out of focus with Him. Just too many people to see, not that seeing people is bad, but sometimes just thinking about the people I just meet or what I say to them takes up valuable time from spending time with God. Worst of all, it is the fact that when you meet friends, brothers and sisters, there is this evil tendency that my mind subsconciously thinks that companionship with God is no longer required.

I like hanging out with friends. Laughing, playing, chatting... who doesn't anyway? But sometimes, when I'm just sitting there amidst them, I tend to keep quiet,draw back- there is this sense of lossness, like I'm drowning in a host of conversations. And it got me thinking, is it really empty and meaningless, I mean all those laugheters and talking, just a way of the evil one to help us waste time instead of doing something for God? Don't get me wrong, it is completely Ok to have fellowship with friends, sometimes there is this line to be drawn, the line between knowing what we are talking or just empty 'crap'. Anyway, it's just a thought but come to think of it, sometimes when I'm hanging around with people, it keeps me 'addicted' and God would seem so far to me, though He's near. Well, better get back to my knees and work the relationship.

Much said, on another more solemn note, I send my condolences to uncle Richard's (my dad's cousin) family. To lose a loving father and husband is never easy thing, especially when he's young (early 50s) and sudden. All in all, he's a very nice man, and I'm sure he's in heaven rejoicing now...

0417

It's 4:17 am in the morning of 28th August 2005 - I can't sleep. A normal person will ask me to get some food, or milk; a christian will ask me to pray for peace; I ask myself to blog. The truth is I had late dinner and ALSO supper. I prayed for peace and I have it. The reason I can't sleep is that I've been catching up with the thinking. Being sick for five days (!) was a bit of a drag for me - physically, mentally, and spiritualy. All that a patient such as me do is sleep, wake up, eat 1/3 of my ordinary meal and sleep. The waking hours are spent wondering when I'll get well. The sleeping hours spent on who knows what...

And so the story goes on my thinking, thinking about what to expect in year 3, what to expect in Committee Meeting, how to spend more time with God etc. I seriously have no 1 perfect solution but at least now I'm feeling ready to get back to bed.

~z z z

Quote of the month

“Education by itself is dangerous."

-Tun Dr Mahathir, reported in thestar.com.my on Monday, August 22, 2005.

Love, for the day is near...

Many apologies for the long pause. I notice I hadn't been blogging for quite some time. Yet, much has happened since my last real blog (that excludes the poem). I guess I just couldn't put them all in words. To cut the story short, I got a job (helping my friend), lost the office keys (yes, again!) and went back to Ipoh for a visit with my cell group mates.

Clearly, the events in my life implies an interesting life that I have. But often, it is not the events that makes life, but the people in it. Regarding that, God has been bringing me through a lesson of dealing with people. I thank God everyday for the people around me. My gracious boss (John Ling) for one. My dear friend and brother Boon Yee another. However cliche I sound, I need to say this: christians are different. Yet, there are some other christians that makes me frustrated and sends me spinning in anger. "Personality" some might say. "Sin?" some might ask. But they made me angry and/ or disappointed all right? They make me wanna scream ok?

On another note, whether it be 'the still small voice' or whether you call it my 'conscience', my mind always made to react positive, not negatively, although sometimes I would act to the contrary. You know, the flesh is weak...

Whatever the reason why sometimes our own brothers and sisters upset us, and however we react, God is taking us through a journey of learning and experience- this is always what I hold on to. And this is really something I need to learn, to be gracious, to love, to forgive... something that I struggle. In all that I experienced, I sincerely hope, and honestly pray, that what I've gone through, I would not only learn from it, but also believe in it that loving is God's will , however 'hard' I think it is.

Father, thank you for Your manifold blessings, which is based upon Your great love. It is not that I love You, but You loved me first. Thank You for Your Son Jesus, who came to show me to love. I ask Lord for forgiveness over the many shortcomings and my disability to show love to my brothers and sisters. Cleanse me with the precious blood of the Lamb. Help me to hide Your Word in my heart to love. Help me react in a manner that is pleasing to Your eyes. Take me through this journey of faith as I keep my eyes fixed on You always, by Your grace. Amen

A poem by Anna Laetitia Wuring

Father, I know that all of my life is portioned out for me

And the changes that are sure to come, I do not fear to see

But I ask Thee for a present mind, intent on pleasing Thee.



I ask Thee for a thoughtful love, through constant watching wise,

To meet the glad with joyful smiles and to wipe the weeping eyes

And a heart at leisure from itself, to soothe and sympathize.



I would not have the restless will that hurries to and fro

Seeking for some great things to do or some secret thing to know

I would be treated as a child and guided where to go.



Wherever in the world I am, in whatsoever estate

I have fellowship with hearts to keep and cultivate

And a work of lowly love to do, for the Lord on whom I wait.



So I ask Thee for the daily strength, to none that ask denied

And a mind to blend with the outward live while keeping at Thy side

Content to fill a little space, if Thou art glorified.



And if sometimes I do not ask in my cup of blessing be,

I would have my spirit filled the more, with grateful love to Thee

More careful not to serve Thee much, but to please Thee perfectly.



There are briers besetting every path that call for patient care

There is a cross in every lot, and an earnest need for prayer

But a lowly heart that leans on Thee is happy everywhere.



In service which Thy will appoints there are no bonds for me

For in my inmost heart is taught the truth that makes Thy children free

And a life of self-renouncing love, is a life of liberty.



~Anna Laetitia Wuring~

My Longest Blog Ever

There are different seasons in each of our lives. The bible tells us this in Ecclesiastes 3. In recent weeks, I have been going through a time of losing, something common in all of our lives. I lost my phone and my house/car keys in the matter of 7 days (that’s a week!); in between, I failed my Public Law paper. As if material loss is not ‘bad enough’, in some sense I lost my ego and my pride, in which are both fitting and good for heaven’s sake. I shall explain more on this.

For a great part of my life, I have always thought that I have life all under control. I guess the foolishness of thinking that I have a higher “I.Q.” than some of the people around me has gotten the better of me. As a result of my pride, the malady of crowning myself as lord of my own life come in to consume me, which is both my sin and deceit of the enemy. Although I always appear to be humble (looks can deceive!), parts of me are not. But thank to the Lord God, who is forever faithful and good, I manage to identify and thus deal with my lack of trust in Him. The events that had taken place during the past week or so have demonstrated that I am a human prone to mistakes and doomed for destruction. It is not just the losing of belongings, but also the lose of self-belonging. Indeed, not just the people around me who are disappointed with me, but most of all the self-disappointment that often comes in and push me off the cliffs into the pit. I was disappointed of this Nicholas Hor, whom I always thought was so reliable would lose such things as his “most-precious” Motorola V878, or his aunt’s house and car keys in a matter of weeks. Equally disappointing was the failure of the law paper that always thought so confidently that I could be able to pass. Lo and behold, it struck me like lightning, and in case you hadn’t realized, it struck me three times, in the same spot – the heart.

Since the beginning of history, man had never not been a disappointment, whether to themselves, to someone else, or to God. Yet, if we allow it, by God’s grace, and through Jesus Christ His only Son, we have hope in the midst of hopelessness; and light in the midst of darkness. “For all have sinned and fallen short of God’s glory…” and “the wages of sin is death…” but “the free gift of God is eternal life through Christ Jesus”. And as I would put it- for all have been hopeless but God is here(!) to give us hope. As I walked into God’s sanctuary this morning, I begin to realize all His mercies and the mystery of His Grace. Whether my recent ordeal was from God, satan or man, God allowed it to happen (as what the beloved Dr Tan Soo Inn had shared) for His divine purposes. And if I shall add, God allows problems and troubles to happen to His people because He loves them, and somehow or rather, (and I boldly claim) brings back hope. So very often, we are only reminded of God’s grace in our troubles, not in our happy moments- a truth that Moses boldly claimed, “…When you have eaten your fill in this land, be careful not to forget the Lord…” (Deuteronomy 6:11-12). Although I always have the knowledge of being humility, as I entered His sanctuary, humility came as knowledge in the heart, not in the head. God loves the humble, the proud He will humble. “Pride leads to disgrace, but with humility comes wisdom.” (Proverbs 11:2)

The Lord our God is the King of kings and Lord of lords. He is the Lord of all creation, the Mighty One of Israel. He is the Master of our lives and the Banner of our hearts. Without humility, no one can truly say this. This is why God was so delighted with the trio of Abraham, Isaac and Jacob (a question I have been pondering for some time now. Amen! God answers!). Because of Abraham’s humility, he trusted in God and willingly sacrificed Isaac. Because of Isaac’s humility, he pleaded with God for childless Rebekah. Because of Jacob’s humility, he refused to release God until God blessed him (credit to Joram for his God-revealed wisdom). And hence, God had never been ashamed to call Himself “the God of Abraham, Isaac and Jacob. Someone once said, “humility” comes from the word “human”. I took a search through Oxford and found that much more real and truthfully, the word came from “humble”, and “humble” actually relates more to the word “humus”, in which know, is soil. The Word of God agrees and tells us that we were made from the “dust of the earth” (Genesis 2:7). Surely, to be humble is to know that we are but creation of God, coming from the dust, and would still only be dust if it was not for God, who breathed into us the breathed of life. This day I pray that God will continue to take me through this journey of humility, knowing more about His awesomeness and His grace, which is sufficient for me. I echo the words of David, “The one thing I ask of the Lord- the thing I seek the most- is to live in the house of the Lord all the days of my life, delighting in the Lord’s perfections and meditating in His Temple.” (Psalm 27:4)

In Your awesome presence, O Lord, there is fullness of joy. Amen

And so was the testimony of God’s hope-giving. But yet, the most important lesson I learnt for the past few days especially, was LOVE. Throughout my so-called ‘great trials’, many of the brothers and sisters around me continuous helped me and encouraged me. Indeed I am touched by their acts of love: my dear sister Joyce who fetched me around to find my keys and fetched me home when the search failed, brother Boon Yee who continuously helped me and fetched me, Sharon who prayed for me, and many more of my family’s (both at home and in church) encouragements. Undoubtedly, they are true followers of Christ for those who belong to Christ will love their brother… The Holy Spirit in me also convicts me that since the day is near, I really should begin to love. I confess that I have not loved enough previously and by the grace of God I shall pursue the God-given purpose of life:

Love the Lord your God with all your heart, with all your soul, and with all your strength; and love your neighbour as yourself.

There are three things that will endure – faith, hope and love – and the greatest of these is love. (1 Corinthians 13:13)

God is good and His love endures forever. I write this whole blog more to convict myself than anybody else. Indeed, I need to be reminded of His faithfulness and His love.

If you are reading this:

To God, who alone is wise, be the glory forever through Jesus Christ, Amen.

Without Righteousness, No One Can See God

It is 3.45 in the morning. Time to sleep is of the essence; but the work and worship of the Lord should be of no delay. Since my exam is over, I have all the time in the world to do all that I enjoy and desire. But the flesh should not overtake the spirit and therefore I turn again to the Word of Life for spiritual bread.

It is an honour and a privilege to be a servant of the Most High God. Indeed becoming the leader of Christian Fellowship is a great challenge that I’m sure God will take me through. Yet, I still need to have personal growth with my Lord and Saviour, as what Brother Anthony had shared in CF meeting today. My outward acts of worship are of importance but the true test is of the heart- in which God looks at. I pray continuously that God will search my heart and convict me if there be any hypocrisy in me; yet I testify again to anyone reading this blog- I long to love the Lord my God with all my heart, soul and strength. Love you, Jesus.

Even as I flip through the scripture and was praying for God’s guidance in leadership, God continued to show me 1 Timothy 4:12 (credit to Daniel who first ‘revealed’ it to me)

‘Don’t let anyone look down on you because you are young, but set an example for the believers in speech, in life, in love, in faith and in purity.’

I am young, though I’m older than half of the people in CF, but I look young, and I am of a small stature. But God continues to show me how faithful and how greatly he had and would use me in His work, to Him be glory forever and ever. How great Thou Art. What God desire is not the beautifulness of the outward, but the walk of the righteous. I admit sometimes I do not walk righteous in so many ways- especially in the things mentioned in 1 Timothy 4:12, but my prayer to God today (as of 4 a.m.) is for God the Father to work in me with His Spirit, through Christ Jesus my Lord and saviour- to be pleasing to Him in speech, in life, in love, in faith, in purity and in holiness.

We are Fantastic

We were made fantastic too?

Four days of nearly sleepless nights never had a better ending. I arrived (after my contract paper) just in time for the 2.30 p.m. Fantastic Four screening at the new GSC Cinema in One Utama. Of course I managed to grab myself a pack of those sweet caramel poppies and storm straight into Hall 3. Surprisingly, my usual blurness during the afternoons were not present. And, before long, the usual comic strips (for most if not all Marvel Comic-depicted movies) flashed through the screen...

Fantastic Four has this usual introduction on how our heroes acquired their special abilities (Cosmic storm, reminds you of anything?). The next twist of the movie would, of course, turn to the difficulty of the 4 heroes in controlling their powers and how they used in for the good If you are a person seeking for lots of action scenes in the movie, you'd probably be surprised. On my last count, there were less than 4 or 5? What is most significant in this movie is how the four heroes deal with their own issues, whether with or without their super powers. These issues, are of course not far from the rest of us who are mere non-heroes:

Ben Grimm a.k.a The Thing
Perhaps the character that touched me the most. Ben Grimm, after the cosmic shower, had literally turned into the Thing. Something so different, so 'ugly' that his wife could not accept it and left him. From that moment, Ben needed to deal with his appearance, and the starings of many. In our life, are we also also struggling with our ugly appearance or our behaviour or our oddness for being Christ's servants?

Reed Richards a.k.a Mr Fantastic
As you will find in the movie, Reed is a consciencious person. He take all details into deep consideration before making a decision. Nothing wrong with that for a physics scientist except that you bring in formulas and equations for every other thing you do, including your relationship with others. Besides, that's a danger that you trust in your judgment and eyes too much rather than God. Do we live by sight or by faith?

Johnny Storm a.k.a. Human Torch
Johnny's the show-off type. From his riding-cum-kissing scene at the start of the movie, till his production of action figues of the fab 4, he believes in the outward appearance. Some of us are like Jon, they like showing off, whether it be a 'super power' or a special talent or wealth, yet do we show-off our faith in Christ?

Sue Storm a.k.a. Invisible Woman
Being able to switch from something to nothing and vice versa is a great gifting, but Susan's emotions needed some control. Her anger towards Reed (her ex) tore them apart just because Reed said 'no' on co-habiting. Anger is a powerful tool of destroying relationships, more so the God-man relationship. Moses learnt that the hard way; I hope I needn't. One question we all ought to ask ourselves is whether we get angry of God and turn away from Him when He says 'No'. Remember: God love us and sometimes He will not give us something we would regret having.

Oh yeah, by the way, did you know that all of us are fantastic too? The Bible says We were fearfully and wonderfully made.

Living in the Mercies and love of God

I think it must have been more than 1 week since I've blog, I've lost count and I don't really care. But I'm back! God is good and well, He'd brought me through at least till today. And right now, I'm suppose to be studying but I'm sitting right here talking to my 'sis' Xi Ying and blogging. But well I'm happy about it especially if this blog glorifies God...:

Seeking God

Just that this week, except for the times that I've been studying and relaxing and doing nothing, I've beeen really serving and praying for God's guidance and surrendering. Taking up the presidency post (in CF) is to many a great, great responsibility- to me, it's a great great honour to serve God. And of course this in turn, will be indirectly a pressure to me but all I know, and all God wants me to know is to surrender all to Him and He loves me no matter what.

God's faithfulness

And, time-travelling back to 5 days ago, on Sunday, my church in Subang (CDPC) celebrated its 5th anniversary. Praise and thanksgiving and glory be unto God, to who all things were made and done. God has indeed been faithful to the church (you should have came and see the grand-ness and the skits and the performances). And above all that, GOd had been faithful to me since this 'temple' of mine was planted about 20 years ago. GOd really had been great in my life WOW WOW WOW - allow me to be crazy for a moment... ok, back to my seriousness- on the day of my church's anniversary, He did revealed just a little bit of His purpose for me in where He has put me, even in KDU and CDPC and I just felt so joyful and encouraged. Indeed, the God Almighty I worship is the God who hears and the God who works and the God who provides. Hallelujah!

So that is me. I guess right now I feel a bit disillusioned again with my exams coming and all. But deep in me I know He will take me through ... and always be there.

Brothers and Sisters

Just wrote a hopefully(touching) testimonial on friendster for my dear Sis Melody Hor, and really even as I receive love from God, GOd has really been leading me and guiding me to show love. And so, well, I find myself having this tendancy right now, to treat many people around me as 'brothers and sisters'... thought we are all brothers and sisters in Christ but to me, this bros and sis are much more special than. I usually don't mention names here but I really feel proud to have them as kins - Lik Ee, XiYing, Angela, Dianne.. and last but not least (though I've not really told him) Yap-whom has always been like my brother since secondary school days. So much for saying that, the most that I can really do is just to encourage them, and be around them- not to say I'm being proud here- but in Proverbs it has also been said that "It is good to know a friend (me paraphrasing it). And indeed, when I need encouragement, which I always do, they will and are encouraging me.

Thanksgiving

I think I'm getting a bit long-winded here so I'll stop. To those who are reading this blog, peace be with you and I shall pray for you if you need- just give me a tag... And may God bless you and keep you forever and ever...

"My heart and myflesh will fail, but God is the strength of my heart, and my portion forever..." Psalm 73

Laziness- where is thy sting?

Now it's less than 336 hours or 14 days or 2 weeks before my exam and seriously, I'm not at all prepared. Over the past 1 or 2 weeks, I've been telling myself I will surelly pass although I'm not so sure. But right now, I think my 'feelings' might be false hope. There are people who think that they are ready, but the real test is different... and the real test here is my finals- I screw this, I believe I will still survive and be successful in life (because God can turn things around) but time is wasted and I will lose blessings... just like Moses who did not enter the promised land. And even if I did survived, I will still struggle when my next exams... Therefore, I have made an effort to study and work hard. No matter what the distractions are...the sleepiness, the temptations... I believe that if I can overcome and go through this 3 weeks, I'll be able to overcome all exams to come.

Finally, this might just be mere words from me and nothing I mentioned might take place..but I can only hope that by end of this year... laziness will be my victim- through God's grace.. For God's glory and to Him be the glory if I succeed.

Worship and Thanksgiving Post

Someone told me the other day that most of my posts on this blog is related to God... and that I am holy. It was not the first time. Indeed "Without holiness, no one can see God", but again I'm not holy, in many sense. But my rationale of me dedicating this blog to the"things of God" is this: Are there any good things in this world that's not given by God? And am I not a child of God and his servant and his soldier? My life is surrendered to Him and therefore what happens in my life has something to do with God...

'Circles, Triangles and Squares'- that was the theme of the CF Camp, of which I was the camp commandant. Believe me or not, Ms Sharon Lim did 90% of the work and I express my credit & appreciation to her. But why the shapes in a christian fellowship camp? To sum it all out, we have different personalities and characters but one God to worship. And at the end of the (third) day, really, it is more of God than our personalities and characters that matters. If my life is surrendered to him, it doesn't matter if I'm violent or angry or sweet, God is the one who is my all. Moses parted the red sea; Abraham was father of a nation; Peter was 'fisher of men'... all were imperfect- but faith saved them all and God exalted them.

I hereby thank God for bringing Chris to the camp to share and minister. I thank God for bringing me through this amazing challenge as camp commandant. I thank God for touching lives of many. I thank Him for the great fellowship with brothers and sisters... and most of all I thank God for giving me freedom as eagle in the sky and the authority and courage to say "Go to HELL , Satan!"

Thank You Jesus, Amen

Boring is only the 'mask' of an amazing life

Today seems to be a boring day. But just 'seem'. Actually to come to think of it, it's really quite an interesting day.. i mean life shouldn't be boring, not just a few friends tell me that 'life is beautiful' or 'life is short, enjoy!' bla bla bla.. and well, to a certain extend, they have their point. My rationale would be:God didn't put me here to feel boring, right?

Enough about life, let's talk about here and now and today. Woke up at 730 this morning to go for a breakfast meet, which turned out to be quite meaningful.. but somehow I had to 'give and take'... I think the Roti Telur I ate turned out to be bad.. and I had food poisoning, which was quite bad, and I can still feel the 'effect' right now. Then I went to the lab with my laptop, planning to do some work but ended up chatting with my friend Jacin (who's enjoying her life in Melbourne). By the time I was done chatting, it was time to promote the CF camp in the booth. Probably the lowest point of my day, I had to endure severe stomachache while "jaga-ing" the booth (since I was alone there) for at least 15-20 minutes - 'God save me' was my response. Later when Ms Angeline came to take over, I had to suffer in the cubicle, the diarrhea was quite bad...

I got out just in time for contract class, and later tort- which nearly made me scream! I wasn't planning to answer the medical tort question and the whole class was entirely about MEDICAL TORT. Well, that's a law student's life in class... i guess. And so, after 1.5 hours of torture, i finally got out and rushed straight to the computer lab to do a learning survey, conducted by none other than the lovely Ms. Magdelene. In a way, it was much of a light part of this episode of Nic Hor's life since I won the 'survey-filling' competition with 2 of my classmates- in God we do have the victory, don't we? Just a wrong application of His Word, HAHA.

And finally, I get to blog here..after a seemingly long day. Mind you, this is not the epilogue for my version of 15th July 2005 yet. There's still a camp committee meeting in 5 minutes. And tonite might just be one of those nights...

This is really the insignificant part of my life. The micro level of it. One by one, these 'episodes' of our lives weaved into one beautiful story that will ups and downs and in-betweens. In the end, I would really hope and is convinced that when we die, we will all live happily ever after, like Cinderella or Beauty and the bees (I spelled this intentionally).

Last but not least, things such as SINS or even food poisoning are bombardments that the evil one seemed to have won. The battle might be lost, but the victory is secured in CHRIST JESUS.

Life's Mercies

It's 11 am now and in 5 minutes time my contract lecturer (Mr. Foong) will be in class and in 4 minutes time I would have to run there with all my might. However, that's not going to stop me from blogging, since I saw jthe girl beside me (in the lab) just happily putting additions into her blog. You can say that it's envyness or even impulsive, haha.

Anyway, I just finished an e-mail notifying Dr Tan Soo Inn (he's the man!), inviting him to talk about Star wars and Christianity in our CF. Well, it's almost certain he would be free to share (considering the fact that we gave him 3 dates to choose from), and I'm delirious that it would be a GREAT experience and insight... Indeed Star Wars has a lot to do with our walk with Christ even though some might not agree with me.

I just went through a hell of a busy week but thanks to GOd's grace, I managed to survive. This week? Gonna be another one of those weeks that I would really say 'Thank God it's Friday'.. assuming I live to see the weekened coming. And if you ask me how's my spiritual walk? I'm growing in maturity, but only at the great mercies that my Heavenly Father had gladly poured. May God draw me and pour His love and Grace abundantly. AMEN.

Busy and busy and...

If you are a frequent to this blog, you must be wondering what the h*** am I doing? or you must be thinking that I've given up on blogging... NO, I'm just too busy. Due to time constrains and the fact that I'm busy, these are some of my life's updates:

1. 2 assignments due this week- Just handed up contract assignment yesterday and Admin law (briefing paper) 2 will be due tomorrow. Talk about being a law student!

2. Went back to Ipoh last week; mum and dad fetched me back. Thanks. Had a great time with my family and friends... at the expense of the time doing my work. But it's ok...

3. Countdown 1 month- before my exam. And this time, it will be a craker. Although I'm optimistic about it, failing this will bring adverse, unimaginable consequences.

4. ...and finally, the blog's 'transformation' is almost done. Enjoy yourself.

Thanks all.

Updating my blog

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Recent Updates
Favourites & Bible verse of the week : added.

Confusion

Many people go through life staying put in certain locations, turning round and round; and more often than not, they feel dizzy as the world around them spin. I am in such a situation right now though I don't know why. There are so many confusions and frustrations though I can't put it in words. There are so many things in my life right now that are hindering my growth in God, so many battles lost. I know that the War has already been won by Our Lord Jesus but will I be in the winning side at the End? In my service to the KING, I was always there to impact people but what about myself. In the dawn of a new era for me, this is the worst I could have expected. Would I end this year as a scum (as I was the same time last year) again? I pray oh God, that I wont. I truly and madly need discipline in my life- spiritual discipline that requires divine help. I am free because JESUS paid the price. YOU are my King and friend. Draw me close to you...

1 Corinthians 9:27

²⁷No, I beat my body and make it my slave so that after I have preached to others, I myself will not be disqualified for the prize.

Group photo from church camp.. Proud of all you guys! 

Pathway To Spirituality

The pathway to the Light is not easy


It was like the blurrest 3 days of my life. Due to the natureof the camp itself I must say that there was no 'WOW' (a sudden dramatic positive change of life) effect, unlike some other camps I've been. Both a good thing and a bad thing. One of the things about the WOW effect is that it does not last long usually. Anyway, it was a great experience nonetheless, now that I've discovered my tempearament in my pathway to spirituality. But most of all, I thank God for the fellowship I had with the people there and a good weekend-off the usual calendar.

My dominant trait

1) Comtemplative- loving God through adoration
Key idea: As 2 lovers do nothing but gaze into each other's eyes, the
contemplative holds hand with God and gazes lovingly at God until his
heart's delight is satisfied.

2) Enthusiasts-loving God with mystery and celebration
Key idea: God is to be lovedwith gusto, so we must let go and encounter him
with all excitement and awe.

May God, through His Spirit, strengthen my inner being.

Heaven is in your heart!

Kingdom of Heaven is better than Troy or King Arthur. Not because of the cinematic effects, good acting, or ORLANDO BLOOM... but because it taught me one or two things about life, and confirmed a few others.

Meet Belian of Ibelene (Orlando Bloom), son of Godfrey. Before he was knighted (by his dying father), he was a sinful blacksmith.. he killed a somewhat wicked priest who deserved to die anyway. Just few years down the road, Belian needs to defend the city of Jerusalem from the 'mighty' Saladin, the muslim leader of the Saraceans. As one might suspect, this movie is what is called 'politically sensitive' (or should I use religion-ly sensitive). Muslims and christians fighting and racing to control the Holy City, God is with him who wins..Classic, ain't it?

That being said, the underlying lesson is one of great importance. The 'kingdom of heaven' mentioned in the Bible is not on earth- not in Jerusalem. It is out-of-the-world. Muslims and crusaders at that time miss the point! As even in Isaiah 55 it is said 'your thoughts are not My thoughts... declares the Lord'. The kingdom of heaven is established when Jesus returns in all his glory, and as Belian has also said- it is in our heart. If we love God, and do what is right, and be blameless.. the Kingdom of Heaven has already been established in us.

One more issue highlighted in the movie: Are we required to do evil for the GREATER good? May God be my guide, and teach me if I ever fall into this situation.

Enjoying Your Youth means Playing AND Studying Hard!

Just had a great weekend.. and in some ways, the weekend is extending itself right up to this very moment. Well, sometimes, students just don't understand workers (working people, that is) but do workers really understand students? Ok, fine, they were once students as well, but humans are a forgetful bunch- plus: times have changed. Back then, there were no posh malls, no internet, no DOTA, no PS2, no happening peers... all you can do is study, eat and sleep.

The modern student is different. Temptations are everywhere. Study is still fun- but the rest is 'funner'. This doesn't mean that they are a spoilt lot. Yes they have fun 24-7, but they too worry about their studies at the same time. They know that screwing the math paper means disaster, but the yound self just doesn't justify itself by actions, if you understand what I mean. In conclusion, while the past generations had no worries but to study and sleep, the current generation has much more worry, for the reasons given above. This is not a bad thing, since we grow in our problems, don't we? Saying that, however, actions speak louder than worries. For God and for our parents, I guess I'll try hard to choose the less fun activity more - studying.

My schedule from 7th - 9th May 2005
Saturday
Morning- Helped in a disabled telematch event
Afternoon- spent time with the Awana Kids in Church
Night- Eu Joe's birthday party, eating nasi lemak (something new) and
barbeque

Sunday
Morning- Guess what? Church, of course
Afternoon- met a friend, and his lawyer friend
Evening- futsal with the testerone-filled church dudes
Night- went dinner with aunts and uncles; watch 'Lost' on AXN

Monday
Morning- Ms Meera's interesting Criminal lecture
Afternoon- Watched 'Kingdom of Heaven', starring Orlando Bloom (the movie
rowks)- by the way, the last time I watched a movie was 'Constantine'.. so I'm
really deprieved of it, me being a movie fan.
NOW- blogging- arguably the most boring thing I've done for the past 3
days... Hahaha

...Now that's what I call LIFE. Oh ya, I really pray that I'll be able to spend more time with God, though. Forgive me, Lord.

A letter to the campers

Here's my very first written speech for a camp, and it's not for myself, but I'm very proud nonetheless HAHAHA :

Dearest
campers,



First and foremost, I would like to congratulate and thank all of you for taking
time out to join this Super Camp organized by the Rotary Club, KL division. I
must say that it is a great privilege for all of you who are attending since you
are among the 150 lucky members of respective Interactive Clubs members across
Kuala Lumpur to be selected to join this year’s
camp.


This year’s camp theme is entitled ‘Towards a Caring Society’. Lately, we find
that the people in our nation are generally lacking the care towards those less
fortunate than us. Day after day, the mass media has never ceased to report of
cases of abandoned children or abused elderly, among others. As a result, these
individuals are cornered into orphanages and old folks’ home respectively. These
people often suffer a hard time in the ‘homes’, where inadequate care and
attention are given. Also, the ‘spirit of neighbourhood’ that was so inherent in
our society just over 2 decades ago has now long disappeared. We are often more
concerned about ourselves than our family, neighbours and friends. This attitude
has been shown to cause a rise in many crimes that can easily be prevented if a
passer-by or neighbour had lent a helping hand. In the wake of such a situation
in Malaysia, the theme of the camp will be centred on building a caring society.
To do so, it must start from us. Learn to care and you will inevitably find
yourself being cared for in your rainy
days.


Also, one of the chief objectives of this super camp is team-building. Through
various activities such as jungle-trekking, river rafting and ‘flying fox’,
students are expected to learn to live as a society, rather than only an
individual. I urge you, therefore, to take time and effort in building good
relationships among all the campers and helping each other to complete each
activity or task. It is my duty to encourage you to ‘leave no man behind’. In
this camp, no one has a privilege over the other. We are all learning to be
tolerant and caring, two values that are essential in our day-to-day association
with members of the
society.


Last but not least, do enjoy yourselves throughout the entire camp. I truly hope
that this camp will be an unforgettable occasion that you would take to remember
all the days of your lives. I express my deep appreciation to you once again for
participating in this Super Camp.

Thank you.

Somehow, you're the best!

OK. YES> It has been 12 days since I entered my last blog entry. But, NO> I did not forget about my dearest blog 'notweak.blogspot.com' nor was I lazy. Sometimes, circumstances mean the freedom to blog whenever you like isn't in your hands, eg. your computer cannot load the blogger.com page or you have 9 assignments to pass up in a week.

Despite the so called 'circumstances', my life was somewhat interesting (as always) since I last blogged. Among the more significant 'events' was the public law briefing paper I completed (by God's grace, really) after I skipped 6 hours of classes. Mummy and papa, forgive me. Also, I went back to Ipoh for a well deserved rest. Caught up with the bunch of friends there and my beloved family (oh ya, my mum would include the rabbits, for that matter).

But really, my family's really people whom I really should cherish. They are permanent (hey, friends can be turned enemies) and they pay for our food (in PJ, you're on your own, man!). In addition, they are really really someone I can count on and smile with and be loved. Somehow, sometimes I just can't grasp it but somehow they are really the COOLEST and most DEPENDABLE. Thank God for people who's in my life and somehow showed me that. And thank God, ya, we do not know love if He had not first love us.

Erm.. this might sound cliche but it's seriously, magnificently, honestly true: Love you papa, mummy, and Min Min. :D

Darkness is coming your way this May 

Why, Lord?

If there is a good friend who doesn't hurts, it's you
If there is a smile thatI'm obsessed to gain, it's yours
If there were a person whom I need to wait for a 100 years, it'll be
you
If there were someone I could thank when I look at something beautiful,
it'll be you

When I fall in love, I run to you
When I break someone's heart, I run to you
When someone breaks my heart, I run to you
When I screw up a frienship, I run to you
When I gain a frienship, I run to you

If darkness surrounds me, I've got you
If everyone hates me, you still love me
If evrything goes against me, you've got something good for me
If I fall, you'll pick me up each and everytime

I don't deserve anything, Lord... but You gave them anyway. I thought I deserved the things I had, but you took them away. If I only learn one thing about life, Lord, let it be that life is nothing about me...

Bye bye March, Hello April!

I think I just had the most 'happening' week of the year. Firstly, was the great, challenging, scary MOOTING COMPETITION, which my team was eliminated, then there was this very embarassing weekend I have spending the whole of my Saturday night and Sunday morning(wee hours, that is) with my 2 crazy friends, and finally this few days, where the cold virus just torment me. All in all, before I even elaborate, I say once again (like what I've said all this while) God is Good!

Mooting Competition
I didn't really know what was like preparing a REAL case before this, seriously. The preparation, the (so called) reading, the time you spend in the library.. etc . Really an 'eye opener'. And although we lost, and I do not wish to elaborate why, it was soooooooooo cool! I thought I'd just break down at the competition itself and surrender, but by God's grace and strength, I was quite satisfied with my 'powerful' presentation of the case... hahahah HINT:the 'powerful' part was an exageration.

The Weekend
Saturday Morning : Was watching 'The Father's Embrace' conference in my friend, Joram's house. I really learnt what the embrace of God the Father is! It's like these 2 BIG STRONG arms just warapping round you! Now you don't get that much in an Asian culture, do you?

Afternoon: Free lunch! Haha, my dear Awana coordinator, Sharon spent me 'Secret Recipe'. Oh dear, I feel so pampered and blessed !

Night: Manchester United drew with Blackburn. That was a bad thing but I was really too bothered with other stuff to shout 'boo'. I mean, Joram and Annie were there and I really appreciated the jokes, the laughter and the heart-to-heart talk. I really love fellowshipping withmy brothers and sisters in Christ. Thank You Jesus for uniting us :)

Sunday evening: I was totally exhausted with that great futsal match with CDPC people. John See's really THE Sol Campbell.. hahaha.. guess what that means.


The Illness
No. It's not the worse way to end the week. I really do learn everytime I get sick. It's really just a normal cold that I have almost once a month. I think I need mroe vitamins. But if, as Paul said, regarding the 'thorns' in his body (messenger of Satan), let me boast in my weakness - Jesus said:'My strength is made perfect in you weakness'.

AMEN!

Once again, thank God for the week ending Wednesday (31st March) - Wednesday (6th April)

We're worth more than many Sparrows

What did JESUS do?

There once was a man named George Thomas, pastor in a small New England town. One Easter Sunday morning he came to the Church carrying a rusty, bent, old bird cage, and set it by the pulpit. Eyebrows were raised and, as if in response, Pastor Thomas began to speak.....
I was walking through town yesterday when I saw a young boy coming toward me swinging this bird cage.On the bottom of the cage were three little wild birds, shivering with cold and fright.
I stopped the lad and asked, "What you got there, son?"
"Just some old birds," came the reply.
What are you gonna do with them?" I asked.
"Take 'em home and have fun with 'em," he answered.
I'm gonna tease 'em and pull out their feathers to make 'em fight. I'm gonna have a real good time."
But you'll get tired of those birds sooner or later. What will you do?"
"Oh, I got some cats," said the little boy. "They like birds. I'll take 'em to them."
The pastor was silent for a moment.
How much do you want for those birds, son?"
Huh??!!! Why, you don't want them birds, mister. They're just plain old field birds. They don't sing. They ain't even pretty!"
How much?" the pastor asked again.
The boy sized up the pastor as if he were crazy and said, "$10?"
The pastor reached in his pocket and took out a ten dollar bill. He placed it in the boy's hand. In a flash, the boy was
gone. The pastor picked up the cage and gently carried it to the end of the alley where there was a tree and a grassy spot.
Setting the cage down, he opened the door, and by softly tapping the bars persuaded the birds out, setting them free........

Well, that explained the empty bird cage
on the pulpit, and then the pastor began to tell this story.....

One day Satan and Jesus were having a conversation. Satan had just come from the Garden of Eden, and he was gloating and boasting.
Yes, sir, I just caught the world full of people down there. Set me a trap, used bait I knew they couldn't resist. Got 'em all!"
What are you going to do with them?"Jesus asked.
Satan replied, "Oh, I'm gonna have fun! I'm gonna teach them how to marry and divorce each other, how to hate and abuse each other, how to drink and smoke and curse. I'm gonna teach them how to invent guns and bombs and k i l l each other.
I'm really gonna have fun!"
And what will you do when you get done with them?" Jesus asked.
Oh, I'll K i l l 'em," Satan glared proudly.
How much do you want for them?" Jesus asked.
Oh, you don't want those people. They ain't no good. Why, you'll take them and they'll just hate you. They'll spit on you, curse you and kill you. You don't want those people!!"
How much? He asked again.
Satan looked at Jesus and sneered, "All your blood, tears and your life."
Jesus said, "DONE!"
Then He paid the price.
The pastor picked up the cage he opened the door and he walked from the pulpit........

Notes:
Isn't it funny how simple it is for people to trash God and then wonder why the world's going to hell. Isn't it funny how someone can say "I believe in God" but still follow Satan (who, by the way, also believes" in God).

Isn't it funny how you can send a thousand jokes through e-mail and they spread like wildfire, but when you start sending messages regarding the Lord, people
think twice about sharing.

Isn't it funny how when you go to forward this message, you will not send it to many
on your address list because you're not sure what they believe, or what they will think of you for sending it to
them.

Isn't it funny how I can be more worried about what other people think of me than what God thinks of me.


I will leave you with this scripture
John 3:16
For God so loved the world that he gave his only begotten son that who soever believeth in him shall not perish but have everlasting life.

Take the easy yoke and bear the light burden

Three days since I'm back in P.J. and life is 'back to square one'. 10 days of being a rather useless (and aimless) guy in Ipoh and I have to say I'm really having such a 'cultural shock' back here. Just the thought of the loads of work awaiting me is terrifying. And after just 2 days, I have to confessed I was overwhelmed. College, Christian Fellowship, prayer meetings, committee meetings, mooting competition... you name it. Well, it's rather obvious how much sleep I've been getting.

In times like this, the flesh and the mind are weakest. I guess the 'thorns of life' (see Jesus' parable on the sower) are catching up and at times of these, I really need to turn to Him MORE for MORE of Him, as the thorns might 'eat me up'.

Despite that, things have been tougher. Guess what? My superb confidence on my contract paper was crushed. An hour or two ago, i was still in self-denial. I DOn't deserve only a PASS for that effort I put in!!! And why is life so unfair anyway?

Answer: Thank God its Holy Week. It is in this time that I really get the much needed reminder of God's great LOVE. And I was really reminded that I (or we) in fact don't deserve anything in our life. We are, I would say, 'super wicked' people. Rebelling and sinning doesn't result in life, but death. We all should've been cursed! I don't deserve what I am and where I am at the moment. But God came, and the Emmanuel changed it all. God is Good. Albeit that, I shall really put in more effort, His name should be glorified.

I would say that God is really the wisest among the wisest. Who else could strike me like that? I really want to commit my life back to Him this Easter season. I'm taking up the cross and following Jesus. Despite the suffering I foresee, I know that:

Jesus said, " Come to me, all of you who are weary and carry heavy burdens, and
I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you. Let me teach you, because I am
humble and gentle, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy,
and the burden I give you is light."

Matthew 11:28-30

What a Friend We Have in Jesus!

Well, it's not the expected entry but I don't feel comfortable just placing it in my heart and stressing it out. So, I might as well just leave a few words here (rather my complains actually).

Not really such a BIG thing actually, but I was quite put down by my bunch of friends this afternoon for not attending an 'appointment'. Some of them didn't even bothered calling (or they called after the thing started)! I was alone(there should be at least 4). My time is precious too. I don't know if my complains are really valid or even worthy to be bothered, but there's definitely a deep disappointment in me. And I have to confess- in my mind, I was cursing those b******s. Sorry, Jesus; sorry, Friends.

As always, I know (deep in me) that God wanted me to learn something. And I'm still trying to paint the whole picture. But these are the 'rough scetches' I was able to draw:

1)God gave us friends, as companions, not as refuge.
2)In this world, God is the only One who will not let us down, whatever the circumstances.
3)Be patient even when a big disappointment stares straight at your face (I really wanted to message them and scold them, but thank God I didn't).
4)God is always building us in our suffering.

God works in wonderful, unseen ways and I'm actually feeling better after typing this blog. HE IS GOOD. I'm convince 101%.

One last thing: Still love you all very much, pals... despite today.

What's for lunch tomorrow?

The good news
A wholesome meal.


...And the bad news

They cause cancer, diabetes, high blood pressure...


"Lord, may my days on earth be long..."

Was Noah too scared of the dinosaurs? 

Of course Heaven is better... 

(concrete) Forest reserve in Bukit Cahaya 

Malaysia - Truly Asia

In a very brief statement, let me make a confession: I love Malaysia. It's really such a wonderful country with wonderful scenaries (looking forward to Redang in May) and more lovely people (gosh, C*** Yee's sooooooooo pleasant to the eye!). My home country is really the next best thing to erm... heaven(?), or more down-to-earthly, France.

However (haha, you just knew it, rite?) the FACTS suggest the contrary. Look at Bukit Cahaya (interpreted as the 'shiny hill' and it's really shiny now without the hills) or the dirty toilets or the awfully, corrupted officers- Malaysia, truly Asia?

And today, the issue of RESULTS is once again highlighted. Why people who deserve something don't get what they deserve? Why do people weep for that 0.01 aggregate that they missed for the STPM*? ANd most importantly, Malaysia's education system sucks to the deepest sense because it's really about getting perfect scores, and not the knowledge. Have we missed the big picture? Didn't anyone tell them that wisdom, honesty and maturity are much more important in the real world? Forget about the FAIRNESS, but are we even there yet in terms of transparency and freedom of choice?

Well, I'm too tired to go on but the conclusion from today's blog entry is this: We want to be perfect but we can't because we chose not to be from the start (see Genesis 3). Therefore, let us just look to the future (and to God, the perfect One) with hope that in our imperfection, good can be produced.

p/s: Sorry my dear country, you're still great despite the people in you who screwed big time.


*STPM- Public examination in Malaysia equivalent to the A-levels.

Can a sim be sick?

This is not me. God did not create me by this method.



Argh... the sore throat's killing me. Must be that Kit Kat bar that worsened the condition.

But on a lighter note, my gastric pain is actually better now (Hallelujah!). God is Good. He'd probably be so good at playing the Sims 2, but then again He might suck- He let his sims make their own choices (remember how the fire used to kill those miserable simmys in the Sims 1, haha). But anyway, it's a joke of course.

Was browsing through the Sims 2 website just now. It just fascinates me to see so many people devoting their time and effort playing a game controlling an artificial person (ya, they call them their 'sim'). If you've played it, you'd know. Their names, race, gender, PERSONALITY... Come on, get some life, friends! You can't even fix your own screwed-up life.

Enough of the criticisms. TO tell you the truth, I played The Sims too... hahahaha.. Well, think of it this way, it's just a game. Releasing tension, entertainment etc. And on a more serious note, hope the gamers do learn a thing or 2 about life while playing it.

Just one more thing, why do those sims NEVER GET SICK?!

WOMBATS next 15 months. 

The Miracle Pill

I know I shouldn't be blogging now. I actually do have better things to do and even better reasons not to ANYTHING. Well, it's been more than 3 days now since I went into this condition termed 'sick'. Believe me, I'm actually better, in fact I should be fully recovered by now if it wasn't for me eating too little for the past 2 days (and eating too much for the past week). Why? Because my gastric pains are recurring.

Life is really dimmer than usual, be it my physical sufferings and well, psychologically too. My mind tends to wonder, ponder, think too much, it freaks me sometimes. And as you might have suspected, I've been wondering recently why i'm such a weak guy. Allow me to elaborate- I fall sick almost every 3 months. Though I see many of my friends falling sick almost every other months, they are girls (no offence to the ladies out there). Anyway, my point here is, I'm super weak physically.

Physical aside, I'm actually really weak spiritually too, as much as I hate to admit that. There's such a gap there- stuffs like prayer, Word, wisdom... There were times in which my pride interferes and makes me think I'm a 'righteous' person, well, those were just good lies that makes me trip and fall. Here's the truth (and the bomb):I'm super poor spiritually.

I'm not humble, nor am I self-condemning. Just my way to draw you to the conclusion I've made. Some time ago, I got this thought, whether it be from myself or from the Spirit, this I put it down: God works through our weaknesses. When we feel 'strong', we don't need God; if we admit that we are weak, our great creator God can pour down His grace and strength abundantly in our beings.

³¹Jesus answered them,"It is not the healthy who need a doctor but the sick. I have not come to call the righteous, but sinners to repentance." -Luke 5:31

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Not.Weak.blog is for the reader who is looking for strength amidst of the already scientifically-recognized weaknesses humanoids (yes, that's us) are facing. This is not a remedy. It's a source. Source of finding the source of strength.

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For When I'm weak, then I am strong...

-Paul